I am Grateful!

Sometimes in life it takes a tragedy to put things into perspective for yourself. I know that everyone in life is going to struggle with something and face their own trials. When we are wrapped up in our own lives it is hard to take a step back and be grateful for the things we do have. I have always tried to think of the blessings I have rather than dwell on that which I don't. It is so easy for me to get into a mode of thinking, 'why me, why now, why, why, why?' I can easily get stuck into feeling sorry for myself, but I choose to stay positive and trust in the Lord. There have been far worse tragedies going on in the lives of other people that I am close to. Their trials have been such a reminder to me that I have so much to be grateful for. I am so grateful for the opportunity that I have to be a wife and mother to the most amazing people I know. I am so grateful for the examples that I have in my life, to make me stronger and to lead by example. I am truly blessed to have had the gospel in my life and to use the tools set in place for me to succeed in this life. Without this rock of truth, I don't know where I would be. I choose to be grateful for all that I have and continue to look forward to the blessings in store for me. I know that this life has so much to offer me and I am prepared for what is to come. I choose to take these trials in my life and learn and move past them. I do and always will acknowledge the Lord's hand in every blessing I have. I know that the pain and suffering that I have felt, the Savior has also felt. I know that this will not last forever and I can continue to be the wife, mother, friend, and daughter that I am meant to be. Thanks to all of you that have put up with me and be there for me!

“Faith in something greater than ourselves enables us to do what we have said we'll do, to press forward when we are tired or hurt or afraid, to keep going when the challenge seems overwhelming and the course is entirely uncertain.” ~ GORDON B. HINCKLEY

The Project is Finished!

So this last weekend we were able to finish the bed we made. When I say that we made the bed, it was from scratch. Some people were a little confused about that and thought that we bought a bed and assembled it. This was such a fun project for Matt and I to do, but I am glad for it to be done. We painted and sanded on Saturday and set it up in our room that evening. This thing was a beast getting inside. The headboard is REALLY heavy and getting it up our staircase was a miracle. Our stairs go straight up and then turn to the left and go up another 3-4 feet. The turn was almost impossible, but we made it. Unfortunately for our wall, it go pretty beat up. Other than that and putting a small hole in our bedroom door, we got it all done without killing ourselves. It was such a pain that I told Matt we can sell the bed with the house when we move next! Maybe he just needs someone with a little more strength to help him next time! We also painted our kitchen table this weekend, but I don't have any pictures of it. Now we just need to paint the chairs on Saturday and we'll be done! After that I think we will be project sick! I'm sure we'll think of something else to do soon! Other than that, things have been pretty mellow here. I wish I had more exciting news to tell, but I don't, so this will have to do! Oh, here are some more recent Keagan sayings; "Oh Geeze mom!, Hello? I'm talking!, and What Pappened?

Update

So i have been really busy lately and have not updated this blog for a while. Since the last time I blogged, we have had Christmas, Valentine's Day, and Easter. All of the holiday's have been good for us. Christmas was great this year and Keagan got spoiled like usual! Matt and I have been busy with little projects and having fun with it. I have found that if I don't have things planned out for our weekend in advance, we end up sitting around wondering what we are going to do. The latest of our projects has been making a new headboard and footboard for our bed. I have always wanted a nice bed to go in our room. Unfortunately, I have a hard time paying $700-$1000 for the style I want. I came across this website that my friend told me about and it has all kinds of knock-off plans for furniture. This particular one that I liked was a pottery-barn inspired bed. They call it the Farmhouse bed. I convinced Matt to build it with me and make it my mother's day gift this year. So far we have it all built and sanded, but we need to paint it and antique the edges. It is going to look great in our room. Since we have been in a repair, building, improvement stage, we decided to paint our kitchen table as well. They are all going to be black, and the chairs too! It is really funny what things excite me now! Anyways, it is just a fun way to spend time with each other and make something out of it too!

Keagan is getting into a really fun stage now where he says the funniest things. One of my favorite sayings is still "oh gosh me!" Some other recently sayings are, 'uh-oh skettios' and 'i come hold me you'. He is also starting to have a really big imagination! When he doesn't have others to play with, he really has a fun time. He also does this when he has friends over, but most of them don't understand how to play pretend. He likes to pretend he is going to the store or to work. He grabs his tool box and says, 'bye mom, i go work.' And he really loves playing 'the boss'. He will sit with his toys and talk to them like, 'play nice kids, okay?' Or he'll say 'I said, no!' He is too funny! My favorite is when he pretends to cook and eat food, and he always shares his creations. I have a feeling he is going to be a real creative mind when he gets older. Well here are some pictures from Easter and of the bed.

Halloween Fun

This post is a little late but here are the pictures from our fun Halloween this year. It was really fun this year because Keagan had a better idea of what was going on. A few weeks before, we went to a pumpkin patch to get our pumpkins this year. Keagan of course thought it was so much fun. He really liked the baby pumpkins we got for him. I didn't take pictures while we carved them, but Keagan wasn't too thrilled about it. He didn't like getting his hands dirty. We also went to the corn maze this year with the whole family. This year Keagan wanted to go down the HUGE slide all by himself. I thought he would be scared to death, but he loved it! Enjoy the pictures!

Finding the Strength

I don't think that it is any new news that I have had a hard time with our infertility issues lately. I think that I need to take the time to personally thank everyone that has helped me in this struggle. I have had so much support from family and friends and I couldn't ask for anything more! Matt and I just went to the temple over the weekend and it was just the medicine I needed! We both left feeling more comforted and sure that we will be blessed with a baby when the time is right. We are working on the Lord's time, not ours. I think that I need experiences like these to set me straight! I tend to think that I don't need anyone's help. I try really hard to be as independent as I can. I hate feeling like I am a burden on someone. It just doesn't sit well with me! Sometimes I think that I don't even need the Lord's help! I am so wrong! These experiences are hard, but at the same time I feel so lucky for them. Without these roadblocks, I would not be reminded to get on my knees and ask for help! I wouldn't have the relationship that I do with my Heavenly Father. That is something that cherish and strive to keep and strengthen! I love my family and friends for helping me through this tough time! I also have the best husband in the world. Whenever I am feeling discouraged and depressed, he brings me back to reality. He reminds me to be positive and hope for the best. If it weren't for him, I would have given up a long time ago! I am so blessed to have him in my life. I truly do not know what I did in this life to deserve him! Thanks again for all of your support!

Bad Blogger!

I think that I am possibly the worst blogger! I haven't posted anything new for a long time now! I don't think anything big has transpired in our home since our vacation in March, but I'm sure it is nice to know that we are still alive. This summer we all kept pretty busy between Keagan's 2nd birthday and all of the fun family get togethers we have! Well the latest and greatest is that Keagan no longer sleeps in his crib. We changed it into a toddler bed and he is doing great now! We first decided to change him to the toddler bed, because he was crawling out of the crib. He was smart about it too! He would throw out his pillows and blankets and pile them on the floor for him to land on! So the first week in the bed, he did great. He went right to sleep and slept through the night. Then, he realized that he could get out and refused to stay in! He would turn his light on and just cry, or come into our room. We tried several methods and finally found that with the safety door knob on, and a dimmer switch, he sleeps in his bed once again! Next thing to tackle is potty training! He likes to go pee in the potty because he gets rewarded with candy! But he is a little confused. He will sit on the potty and fart and then say he is "all-done"! We will get there eventually!

I recently decided to open up my house for daycare. I'm not doing anything big right now, just two kids three days a week. It is really fun for Keagan to have other kids to play with during the day. He is such an active little guy now, that I think that he gets bored just playing with Mom all day! Matt and I are doing good, and still trying to expand our family! Things seem to have been a lot harder this time around than when we tried for Keagan, but we are hanging in there. I always have to remind myself that I am blessed just to have ONE child of my own. I have always known that bringing children into this world would be harder for me than others, but I have been prepared for the worst and take everything one day at a time. Don't get me wrong, I still have those days where I start to feel sorry for myself, but I've learned that in doing so, I get nowhere! This experience for me is definitely humbling and sometimes I forget that I need to just stop and pray! As for now, we will keep doing what we're doing and leave the rest in the Lord's hands!

Here are some pictures from the last couple of months!

VACATION

So last week Matt and I returned from our little Mexican getaway! We were there for about six days and had an absolute blast! It was really hard being away from Keagan for that long, but he was in very good hands with Grandpa and Grandma Sutton. Here are all of the picture that we took along the way!





Picking up our rental car from Alamo

Our sweet ride for the trip!

The entrance to our hotel

Inside the Hotel lobby

These vines hang from the top floor six stories up and they were beautiful. There were live plants all over the hotel and ponds with fish.

Our bathroom had a bidet and a toilet!

The sunset from our room balcony

Some pics of our room

Tub on the balcony. It was pretty cool, but if you looked too far over you balcony at night, you got a glimpse of a naked old lady lounging in hers!

Our balcony view during the day. Our room overlooked the Lagoon and the ocean was on the opposite side.

Our Hotel Beach

The way the locals get things done!

We loved going to walmart to get our little snacks! Walmart has taken over the world! And thank goodness!

Poolside! I didn't know Matt was taking pictures of me!

Another one of the pools. There were a lot of them but we pretty much stayed at the same one while we were there.

Our hotel from the Lagoon.

We took out a little speedboat on the Lagoon and had lots of fun. The first boat we had broke and would only drive in reverse! Go Grease Lightning!

Our little Cabana!

We all know by now that Matt is a candy addict and we are trying to help him! These little candies at the bottom were so disgusting! They were strawberry flavored licorice covered in spices and sugar! Gross!

This was the little taco stand we stopped at on our way to Tulum

Shrimp tacos!

Matt felt like going a little over the regular speed limit since everyone else was. This is actually only like 85 mph but it still felt really fast in that little car!

The beginning of the Tulum ruins

Tulum

This beach at the ruins was so beautiful and the sand was so soft.

The water was warm but not warm enough for me. And we didn't bring any towels!

There were these Mayan dancers that kept coming out and singing and swinging from this pole. It was kind of weird!

The shops outside the ruins

The city of Tulum, I had no clue that I was walking by myself, thanks Matt!

Our car was a little tight in that spot. I couldn't get in!

Senor Frogs on Play Del Carmen. No there is no alcohol in that. This is just their "Large" cup.

Our table on the beach!

Our giant bowl of salsa. It was really heavy too because it was real stone

Shopping in Playa Del Carmen

We went to a really nice steak house and this was out $10 bottle of water!

We ate outside since it was so nice!

They gave us this cotton candy at the end of dinner. For being such a nice restarunt, it was really weird!

It was so humid that it started to drip!

The ferry to Cozumel that made me so sick!

The water was so choppy that it was hard for people to walk! Not good for us that get motion sickness!

This was for my Dad. We ate at another place that was owned by Senor Frogs called Carlos and Charlie's.

Our scooter in Cozumel

Driving on the scooter